did i do the right thing? hate it when i am not getting the attention i wanted. i am thinking too much and acting like an idiot i guess. i never tried. i am always so hopeless. and i get irritated easily. yu4 men4.the distance will continue to widen i guess and one day, history will repeat itself all over again. decades later i will still be here blogging, pouring out my woes and voicing out my inner thoughts.people change but i don't.
i'm home..
10:08 PM
Thursday, August 24, 2006
thanks laoda~thanks for coming to pay me a visit today.so so long never see you liao, had a nice get-together today. hope we can always meet on a weekly basis.haa! and i must say that after being with me for 2 years, you did not let me down. just when i needed clothes most!yeah~~~i pin ur letter on my chipboard liao, will take out and read when i don't have the strength to carry on..rock on laoda!
i'm home..
11:24 PM
i went for interblock bball yesterday evening.we lost.to a group of netballers. don't know what we were doing. maybe we were overconfident and we were too sympathetic with them. according to tricia. as in we did not really contest with them over the ball. i am so damn disappointed over the outcome and my ego is not fed. my ego is especially dominant when it comes to bball. don't know why .maybe it is something that i enjoy doing and confident of doing it well. i like the feeling of standing on the bball court. he wasn't watching me play. might as well. i was playing like shit anyway. but i will go for the guys' finals next wednesday because i want to see them play.woon is coming to visit me today.looking forward. meanwhile i have to rush out my tutorial for the coming computing tutorial.
i'm home..
11:37 AM
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
i was totally speechless yesterday. i was treated like a fool. a complete fool and i seriously don't think that it is funny. i really feel so damn dumb and there was no one for me to confide in. All of a sudden i don't know how to communicate with them. i plastered a smile on my face like an idiot. words can't describe how i felt. afterall i can only throw tantrums around my family, those who know how to tolerate me right? Do they have to play around with my pride? i feel so damn betrayed. yes, betrayed is the word. made me feel like a piece of despo shit..after a sleep, the sentiments is not that strong anymore and i hope i can get over it soon but i doubt it 'cuz' the impact is already there to start with. please let me get over and done with with my uni life as soon as possible. i miss home.
i'm home..
12:07 PM
Sunday, August 06, 2006
Just came back from hall 10 foc. didn't quite enjoy it.i was alone and quiet most of the time.no one bothered to talk to me most of the time. when things get desperate, i had to boost my courage to make the first move.i seriously hate doing this big time. there is practically nothing to see in my orientation group. the only one turned out to be a fake freshie and i think i kinda offended him on the first day of orientation. whatever. then i started to notice this senior who turned out to be in the jam band of hall 10. damn cool. he is the bassist and he sure reminds me of ren from nana. and i met this bball guy from the other block during speed dating. a pity he is shorter than me. moreover, he was not my secret partner though he looked the most promising in my speed dating group. I got the other guy from my block, he not bad lah, knows how to look out for me but there is seriously no chemistry. it's ok if there is no chemistry you know but he actually got me into shit! we got volunteered up to play a dancing game during SP night. OMG. i have to dance with him in front of ren and bball guy. i think that's it liao lor. i can practically forsee myself being single for the whole of my university life. this is just so me. i don't talk much and no one seems to like talking to me. guess this is my ife lah.i have to learn to be independent. i won't be happy unless i learn how to enjoy loneliness and how people look at me. i hate to be categorised as a loner. a loser. i guess it is only human to think this way. kex get really popular among our blockmates and i am the totally opposite roommate. whatever. life goes on. Hope i can survive my uni life.
i'm home..
12:08 AM
Me
Nickname: Yux
Birthday: 28 August 1987
Horoscope: Virgo
Living In: Marican
LIKES
Songs: (Currently) Wild World by Mr Big, Rondo by On/Off, Manazashi by Honey L Days, Ikuze!Kaitou Shoujo by Momoiro Clover, Moon by Ayumi
Singers: Britney, T.M Revolution, Love Solfege, Turtles, News, Jay, NQMM, Jacky Cheung, F.T Island, Epik High, BEG
Cartoon Character: Bobdog
Novels: Guiyeoni's works, Twilight
Idols: F4, Kang Dong Won, Yamapi, Jacky Cheung
DISLIKES
Being Ignored
Not Recognised
Wronged
Alone in Public
Working Life
Being Lied to
Being Useless
